hebrews111's Cancer Blog
December 26, 2007
| Prayer for faith | Views: 571 |
Tomorrow is a big day for us. The marker test which has gone down from 1700 to 108 is being run again tomorrow. If we hit zero we are celebrating by flying to Arizona to see the Rams play Arizona(and KURT WARNER)and if not then we just keep fighting and watch the game on TV. Either way we have another day and that is more precious than anything else. I have to remind myself of that always.
I say we in this battle a whole heck of a lot. Steve tolerates the treatments and we hurt for him and cheer him on all at the same time. Oh sure he is irritated by all the searches for cures sometimes and the new things he is forced to eat with and without his knowledge. Thanks Mom for the Zeolite, a story for another day that Zeolite. I guess having daughters with cheerleading in their blood helps with the cheering part. GO DAD!
We are near our nine month mark. The ER visit that started this whirlwind was February 13th, 2007 and after a few mishaps with doctors on April 6th we saw Dr. Pascuzzo for the first time and the battle began.
I remember reading the diagnosis alone in the parking lot for the first time and just the thought of how it felt to read those words rips me to pieces. I thank God every day and every moment that I remember to for being there and reminding me that no matter what the diagnosis nothing is impossible through him. That day God drove my car home and helped me to sit beside Steve when the doctor spoke the words I had read and these past few months he has been our only true hope in what medicine deems as hopeless.
Tonight I am blogging to keep my mind off that darn test, and off the CT scan next week.
Okay, so I can’t quote scriptures but this one I know, every time I look for something I see this and it reminds me that faith is stronger than anything. I think this is from Matthew, Jesus reaches out to save him, asking, “You of little faith, why did you doubt?” That’s me, taking his hand, and he keeps giving me his hand when I let these test or Steve’s symptoms get me down, I am reminded over and over that I don’t need to doubt yet here I am worried enough that Steve is watching TV alone because I don’t want to go in there and let him see the fear in me right now.
The girls are doing there nails so I should get off this thing and get this house cleaned up after the holiday mess.
God bless us all.
Prayer for faith, 
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08.16.08 - 
Thanks for your support -
Debbie,
I will pray for your results. But I tell you that 108 down from 1100 is nothing to sneeze at. That is amazing in itself. You sound like a wonderful high energy family. That too is a tremendous blessing. We are all in this together. Let us his results. It may be a New Year in many ways. Don’t be afraid, things happen for a reason, and there will be many opportunities to celebrate.